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What’s inside of YOU?

What am I avoiding? What are we all avoiding? Fear? Yes. The Unknown? Of course, all are. But what is it really? What is it that lurks deep within, releasing horror deep through us all. The shiver in your spine, the hair raised to attention on your neck. What is it that, though very much a part of us, causes even our own demise?

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The beast. The primal nature within all of us that just shrieks to be released. To be feral for a day; just to be bad for the sake of it. Would it be horrid? Or would it frighten you more to find that you relished every moment of it. What will happen if we DON’T avoid it is, I fear, the real question here. So what would happen? We lose our sanity altogether.

Lycanthropy. Most people outside of horror writing communities and Hollywood studios don’t consider this term often. The ability to shift into a beast, unleashing that primal nature has appealed to people for generations. Why? What causes this innate fascination? The beast. All of us wish to let it out, whether we know it or not. We all want to see it, to feel it, to allow it to envelope our very consciousness. The idea of being consumed with this primal power excites us. And for good reason.

Why don’t we then? What keeps us from unleashing this evil upon the world with all it’s horrors? Why shouldn’t we let the beast rule? Our humanity perhaps?

But what is it that makes us human? Our logic? Our reason? No, that’s not it. That’s not ALL I mean. What makes us human is that deep within all of us, sitting right next to that awful beast, is a sense of moral accuracy. Love, life, joy. What is right, what is wrong. What is evil, what is good. The yin-yang of life, if you will. Love, life, joy. There are, indeed, two natures inside each of us. Which one will you choose? As for me, for now, I choose life.

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Swearing: The Social Debaucle

Cussing is a cultural ordeal in my opinion. For instance, in Germany, swearing is considered everyday speech, whereas here in the US, it’s considered downright immoral and improper. It’s a social debate. Society says, “Do not swear,” therefore, swearing is improper. Speech and language in itself is not a harbinger of evil; it is how you say what you said that makes the difference between life and death.

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A few thoughts on Goth…

So lately I’ve been really interested in sub and counter-cultures (Goth, Punk, etc.) and even deeper into sub-subcultures (such as cyberpunk, rivethead, steampunk, and Victorian goth). Therefore, being the curious, infomaniac I am, I have been doing a lot of research on the subject. But the one thing I have realized through all of this is that a lot of people misunderstand “Gothic” individuals. I mean think about it; what’s the first thing that comes to your mind when you think “goth.” Darkness? Evil? Satanist Paganism? So again, I did some research and I realized why: Gothic culture is very shaded. Most of the people that know the most about Gothic behavior and beliefs are Goth’s themselves. The stereotype that most people have accepted is that everything associated with Gothic culture is that by accepting this culture, they accept evil and demoniac likings, which is true to an extent. See, the thing I realized is that every culture has it’s bad eggs. Every people group, or clique, or whatever has people that are Satanists, or Pagans, or Wiccans. I mean, everywhere you go there is much diversity among peoples. There can also be Buddhists, Hindus, and even Christians as well.

Being Goth is an attitude first and foremost. Though there is a clearly defined aesthetic (black attire, dyed hair, piercings, fishnets, combat boots, and whatever else you decide to “integrate”), those are only things that, to the eye, define what goth is. Goth is about having your own style, doing things your own way, being an individual. BBC posted an article that said this best: “They are usually intelligent youngsters who have rejected the idea that teenagers must fulfill certain criteria.” 

Now, I know what you’re thinking. “But wait,” you protest. “Doesn’t becoming a Goth put you back into an acceptance of criteria?”

“Labels!” You cry, “It’s all about labels!” But that is that sad bit: Most people do put themselves back into labels with Gothic culture, and that is what saddens me the most. But really, the labels are only put there by those who aren’t goth. Those that are reject them entirely, which indeed puts them in a bind. But to find out more, let’s take a trip back to how “goth” got started shall we?

According to, the word “goth” means, “being of a genre of contemporary fiction typically relating the experiences of an often ingenuous heroine imperiled, as at an old mansion, where she typically becomes involved with a stern or mysterious but attractive man.” What does this mean? Well I’m glad you asked. It means that Goth was originally a fictional writing style. It was characterized by the large castles, creepy characters, and “damsels in distress” within them. However, this is not the only place goth came from. A website called Goths for Jesus (awesome, I know right?) defines goth this way, “Goth is an underground music subculture. It is a community that is centered around shared musical and clothing tastes. Goths are those who listen to Goth Rock, which sometimes includes Post Punk, ‘Deathrock,’ and New Wave music.” So what does this mean? Well it means that in the early 80’s, goth was about music. So therefore, “goth” is someone who is interested in art, literature, and music, and though it was originally about goth rock and fantasy novels, it is about whatever taste you like. So back to BBC we go:

“They are refined and sensitive, keen on poetry and books, not big on drugs or anti-social behaviour. They are also likely to carry on being goths into their adult life. They have an ability to express their feelings and are believers in romance rather than one-night stands, it says. In fact, the only things dark about them are their clothing and their sarcastic sense of humour.”

So what have we learned today? Say it with me class, “Goth’s are friends, not food.” What? Exactly.

If you want to read more of the BBC article, or would like some other resources on Goth Subculture, you can find them here:

BBC article

Goth’s for Jesus

Gothic Types*

*(A word of Caution: this is more about the different “stereotypes”; not 100% accurate but informative nonetheless. Wouldn’t take all of your information from this site, but it helps give you an idea of the different subcultures. I’d be willing to bet that if you do get all your information here, you will probably get yourself labeled a shallow poser, by no fault of my own I might add. A.k.a. Disclaimer Here. That is all. 😉 )

Comments, thoughts, all welcome.

Until next time,

-Nocturne out.


Ok check this out. So I saw this movie the other day called “Hardwired.” Great movie, but don’t really recommend to younger viewers considering that a dude’s head explodes in the first scene.

Anywho, the basic story is that this guy gets into a car wreck and is taken to the hospital. He is about to die and has no insurance, so this random organization sticks a chip in his brain. He wakes up with amnesia and a serious headache, soon finding out that he sees advertisements from different companies -get this- In his MIND! Trippy right? Long story short, he tries to take down this organization and get his memories back, and therefore his life.

Now at the beginning of the movie it basically goes through a whole scene that shows advertisements made by big companies like Gatorade, Visa, and Dole being projected onto monuments like the Statue Of Liberty and Mount Rushmore, as well as THE MOON! (made possible by Pepsi Co.) At the end, the main antagonist (and head of the organization) explains the chip’s purpose with a quote that I thought was really creepy in terms of future advertising. He says, “I’m sorry, there’s just no more space. Grand advertising everywhere you can imagine. It’s reached a saturation point. So we had to create a new space.”

Honestly, I think this is insane. Give it a rest big-time ad companies! I mean in my opinion, at this point in time everyone who is gonna hear about your product has pretty much already heard of it I guarantee. But instead, they choose to saturate us in their super advertisements and commercialism. I mean think about it: You wake up in the morning and turn on the news. In between news breaks you see commercials for “the nutritious part of this breakfast!” You drive to your work place and see billboards upon billboards. You go into your office and on the break room tv, or sometimes even on your office buildings or computers they are waiting. Go to any bus stop or train station. Ads. Even our holidays are unsafe!

Christmas for instance. What has it become if not a bunch of commercialism fed nonsense that, if anything, takes you away from the Christmas spirit considering the annoying shoppers, busy malls, crowded parking lots… and that’s just one example! What would happen if we as consumers decided to break out of the mold and say, “No! We won’t buy what you have to sell. Kiss my tail, Paid Advertising!” Now, that’s probably gonna happen considering that we are indeed materialistic in nature, not always in a bad way, but we “need” stuff. I’m not saying that you should start some kind of uprising in your local mall, but this is ridiculous!

Here’s where you come in. What do you think? How would you stop (or succumb) to advertising businesses and commercialism in our homes and workplaces? Maybe you think it’s necessary, or even welcome! Why do you think so? Maybe you are in the advertising business. Your thoughts are welcome as well! How is life in the biz? Do you disagree or agree? Tell me why.

As always, ideas, tips, and questions are always welcome.

Nocturne out.